>BIRTH to Underground Music<

Somewhere in a parallel universe I imagine Wax Poetic’s “Angels” playing as I flout towards the stars with my eyes closed feeling my skin tingle from the pure bliss of the melodies.

I became a fan of Wax Poetic in 2016 when I first heard Angels. I started to play this in my slow flow yoga classes and my students loved it. The soothing tones of Norah Jones vocals on this track made everyone fall in love. Norah later left the group when she decided to go solo in 2002 with her song “Come Away With Me,” but continues to show up now and then joining Wax Poetic as a vocalist.

Wax Poetic is an New York based band who arrived to the scene in the early 2000s and has never left. llhan Ersahin who is the tenor saxophone and keys player in the group founded the band in 1997 where they quickly started jamming together in the NYC night life. The group currently is made up of six members including Sissy Clemens, Gabriel Gordon, Kenny Wollesen, Tina Kristina, Zeke Zima and Ersahin .

Ilhan wanted to create a group that infused his love for soulful tunes, jazz and pop and Wax Poetic is just that. Not only do they jam with six divine members, they also are not shy of collaborating with other artist to bring their visions of sound orgasms to life. Many collabs feature Saul Williams, N’dea Davenport, Jochen Rueckert,Paul Ogunsalo and many more.

All six of them bring something unique to the blend. The band is known for its drum and bass and dance elements that they cook up so perfectly. Angels is a futuristic jazz track that slips elements of deep house and ambient; where it can quickly become white noise or completely grab your attention and keep it there over and over again.

This track was released under Caramelle Recordings in 2003 and become one of their best most listened to songs. Wax Poetic is now with Atlantic and Nublu record labels which was started by Ilhan.

Wax Poetic doesn’t plan to stop producing music anytime soon and the best advise I can give you is to continue to listen and take in every ounce of what Wax has to offer.

Here is another one of my favorite tunes from Wax Poetic:

The fire burning!


You better go out there and shine or you’ll die never experiencing life!

Don’t think twice!

If you do you’ll pay the price!

What the fuck are you waiting on?

Don’t think twice! DO NOT THINK TWICE!

You owe yourself the opportunity to be you!


You’ve worked hard – let’s win!

Here…right now….is your victory!



As I sit in the coffee shop, gathering a thought or two trying to figure out how to deal with this being twenty six shit.

I remember at some point in my teen years I would daydream about being at this point and how amazing it would be. I dreamed of being with my soul mate. Being a full time writer. Having all my shit together. Shit I even dreamed of having children by now. No one ever said “girl bye, it don’t work like that.” There was no blueprint, no magical map that pointed me in the direction of any of this shit. Nothing can prepare you for life better than LIFE.

I haven’t found my soul mate but I have loved up on myself more than I could have ever imagined I would when I was 13. I don’t have children and I am happy about that. I never wanted a situation like my childhood (absent father) so I chose to wait. I never wanted to settle and that’s why the soul mate shit is somewhat a fairytale in my eyes. No one prepares you for multiple heartbreaks. No one prepares you for losing friendships. No one prepares you for the breakdown. No one prepares you for the come up. You just deal. It shapes your character, your morals.

You eventually learn that the path your walking is a path of choices. No you don’t get a fairy godmother. You get LIFE. As I’m still trying to figure shit out I will remember that it’s some mystic shit..some things you can’t predict. Some things you’ll imagine but won’t happen but that’s okay… your okay.

Doing me…to do me.

I have realized so much over the last few months.
I feel lighter and more clear when it comes to what needs to be done to secure my future.
I don’t need a million people following my moves because honestly I’ve had that for the last four/five years.
have appreciated every opportunity I have been given. Every friend. Every lover. Every moment that has taught me a lesson.
When you start to grow, you understand that you can’t take everyone nor everything with you.
Really, we sometimes live for the acceptance of others. We spend hours, days and years doing shit because we want others to think we got our shit together.
We do shit by the book even if it’s our passion we still sit there and follow the rules. Stressing over something that is suppose to bring us joy all because we feel society hasn’t given us the credit we deserve. I can’t take it. I’m done. 
I have 3 major goals for the next few months until August.
I will continue to move in silence. Barely sitting at the table but setting up my foundation the way I know it’s suppose to be set. 

It’s okay to block out what needs to be blocked out so you can shine your light the way you see fit.